Sunday, October 9, 2022

Mushroom hunters

foraging mushrooms with my dad in Jhumlawang

It was a good day. Sun and cloud were playing hide and seek creating a komorebi (sunbeam)effect in the forest near Syaubaari, Jhumlawang, where my dad and I were looking for edible wild mushrooms. It had rained the night before, so the ground was damp and squishy, giving leeches a chance to try to climb up my gumboots and onto my legs. 

But I was not concerned. I had put on thick, long socks. The squelching earth under my feet felt soft as I took a deep breath of air that smelled of woods and decaying leaves. Then I noticed an unusual-looking mushroom in the distance. I walked towards it quickly and crouched next to the big decaying log on which it was growing. Hidden behind the inner parts of the log’s bark was a bunch of whitish-colored mushrooms with branches that had blunt roundish tips. I realised I had never seen such a mushroom before. I wondered if it was edible. “Should I pick it or not?” I bent down looking closer. “What if it is poisonous?” I thought.

‘Baba!’ ‘Babaaa!’ ‘Babaaaaa ooooooo!’

I called for my dad, louder each time because the nearby Tumbasha rivulet had swelled up and was making too much noise for us to hear each other. He had gone a little further into the forest, where he used to look in previous years, to check other logs for horma (oyster) mushrooms.

“Is it edible?” I asked as I pointed at the mushroom.  He crouched next to me, checked it, and smiled.

“You have found the perfect mushroom!” he said proudly, “It is a coveted one.”

My feelings of doubt and confusion were replaced with happiness when I saw how delighted and proud he was of my find. All morning we had not found enough mushrooms to have as a tarkari (curry) for our dinner. 

“We call it musakane (mouse-ear),” he laughed.  

He showed me the blunt looking tips of the bunch which were shaped like the ears of mouse. “Do you see the similarities?” he asked.

I nodded happily. The similarities made me laugh. A warm feeling rose inside me, and we stood together. “I wonder what it tastes like?” I asked quickly. 

“It is slightly crunchy and tastes divine with chillies, onions, garlic and tomato”, he explained while my mouth watered thinking about the delicacy we were going to have for dinner. “Mmmmm, adding ‘timmur (sichuan pepper) is a must!” my father continued as he licked his lips.

My dad asked me to check the log for more musakane mushrooms. He explained that they are usually found in abundance. I walked round the log, crouched on my knees, and checked underneath it and lo and behold! There were more! 

I was so excited!

“Just find the root of the bunch and give a gentle tug,” my dad advised when he saw me struggle to pick them up. As we picked one bunch after the other, our bag was also getting full. I was about to pick the last one when he stopped me.

“Let’s leave this one,” he said, smiling. “We need something for next year too, don’t we?”

I was happy to do so. If it was like a ‘seed’ for next year, then that was good. But if someone else came foraging and found it, then they would also get some musakane mushrooms like us for their dinner. 

When we returned home that day, I was extremely pleased with myself for finding a full bag of mushrooms and a new species at that. But this was not an unusual feeling. With each visit to the forest with my dad, I had always learnt something different about mushrooms. He would take me to the forest areas where varieties of mushrooms could be found and in great detail, he would describe the type of trees and logs which would have a particular type of mushroom and in which month of the year they flourished. He taught me how to distinguish between the mushrooms which were edible, and which were not. He was also cautious when it came to certain mushrooms and insisted that I not touch the ones which were poisonous. He would go into great lengths to explain how to recognise them, to look for subtle differences in colour and shape and distinctive markings. I always felt safe with him around.

As we walked together, each with our hand woven bags and walking sticks, he would tell me stories of how he learnt to recognise edible and non-edible mushrooms from his parents, his shepherd uncles, or his cow-herder cousins. He would show me the mushrooms and tell me about their nutritional and medicinal values, and how we could make them tastier for our tastebuds.

“To find mushrooms, you must be familiar with forest, trees and know your logs,” he would repeat on each visit we took. I enjoyed these moments immensely with him. So, I grew up eagerly waiting for mushroom season, for my mushroom hunting walks with him in the nearby forest and stories of mushrooms that followed.  

Therefore, on the day I found musakane in August 2019, it was like reliving my childhood with my dad. After decades of separation, we were connecting again over wild mushroom foraging. 


As a young girl, I had been sent to Kathmandu from Jhumlawang, Rukum when the Maoist insurgency began in the country, to continue my further education. With the ongoing civil war and no other means of connection except unreliable postal system, the learning about mushrooms stopped. When I was finally able to return to my village during a cease-fire, nine years had already passed. And it was not the mushroom season. To my disappointment, the other few visits I could make in the following years were in different seasons too. 

However, in this gap, I had a profound realisation. While I was studying in Durham, England I used to take long walks in the woods behind the Durham University looking for familiar herbs, flowers and fruits, trees and bushes, landscape, and mushrooms. And when I found the mushrooms, the thrill and comfort I felt made my homesickness a little less and breathing a little easier. I realised that finding mushrooms was like connecting with my dad, my village, my roots. No matter which part of the world I was in, the physical distance no longer mattered. When I saw the mushrooms I would be happy because it brought back memories of me walking with him in the forest, foraging mushrooms, bonding over mushrooms, learning about mushrooms, and listening to stories about people and mushrooms of Jhumlawang.

But I could never dare to touch the mushrooms found in the forests of Europe. Even when they looked so very similar to the ones found in Jhumlawang, I never had the confidence to give a gentle tug and pick them up for dinner. I could only look, take pictures, and experience the happiness of my find. There was no one to pat me on the back and look at me with pride and smiling eyes for my discovery. No one to stand next to me to tell me which months of the year, which trees and which logs held the most delicious mushrooms on this side of the world. In fact, to my utter disbelief, I came to learn that in many countries foraging mushrooms was highly discouraged and in some it was illegal. So, while finding mushrooms in a foreign land took me to my happy childhood of foraging with my dad in Jhumlawang and gave me a sense of being closer to the home, it also made me feel not quite at home. 


Having spent too long feeling not quite at home, to my delight, I was able to return to Jhumlawang in March 2021 for a longer stay. It was a just few weeks before the six-month-long wild mushroom season was to begin. Right after the dry spell of winter when people of Jhumlawang struggle to find vegetables for curry, the mushroom season is welcomed with excitement and relief. Then the forest comes alive with different types of mushrooms throughout the season, as if it is taking turns to feed the locals one after another, as if it is ensuring they recover from the dry spell of the winter. So, children and adults alike make plans for foraging tours. They go alone or in groups as soon as it rains for a few days in May and the forest is alive with not only the chirping of birds but also their giggles, sounds of calling each other and singing. A sudden rendezvous can happen amongst friends and checking each other’s bags to see what was found, then exchanging and sharing of mushrooms to ensure that all will get to eat enough is a common occurrence. Once they return from the foraging, mushrooms and other wild vegetables are also gifted to the elderly or the ones who no longer manage to go foraging. 

Not to miss this chance, my dad, now older, slower, and weaker than I remembered he used to be, excitedly planned for our mushroom foraging walks. 

“What is there for my vegetarian daughter to eat but mushrooms!” he laughed and insisted on going foraging. I was concerned for him as he was not well, and COVID -19 cases were on the rise. But he was adamant about it. So, one fine day, we strolled off into the forest, our bags over our shoulders, our pointed walking sticks prodding the earth as we checked every log. He walked in front as he always did, looking for the logs he knew that used to have mushrooms. Many of the logs were no longer there.

“The ones I knew have long decayed away” he sighed during our search and then he philosophically added, “Reminds one of own decaying away, doesn’t it?” 

I smiled at him, trying to reassure him, but feeling like a giant against his now smaller frame.

Even after half a day of searching, we could not find enough mushrooms to even fill the pot for the day’s dinner. My father could see my frustration and disappointment. 

“The eight-months’ long drought of last year must be the reason that there are not many mushrooms this season,” he spoke softly, summarising our frustration. But we did not give up hope of finding more. We walked further to the log where we had found musakane two years back. But to our disappointment, there was no musakane nor other types of mushrooms either. The log had almost decayed away too.

“Don’t you worry,” he consoled me, “We will find something.” True to his prediction we found
some mauripane mushrooms on our way back. Mauripane is popular amongst locals with its woody flavour and is generally cooked with chillies, potatoes, garlic, tomato, and Sichuan pepper. I had easily recognized it on the bark of a rayesh tree as I had been introduced to it by him during one of our foraging walks in my childhood. I raised my head and looked at him for confirmation and there it was: a smile and pride at my find.
 


[This story was written during the Writeshop ''Learn to write your own Agroecology Stories of Change'' held in June 2021 and organized by Barefoot Guide Connection, Agroecology Knowledge Hub and Family Farming Knowledge Platform. It is published at: https://www.fao.org/family-farming/detail/en/c/1600658/]

Sunday, April 3, 2022

i wait for the magnolia to bloom

 

as it creeps into my blood and bones

like a cold cold winter,
numbing me.
existence becomes meaningless.

gravity becoming a myth
i float deeper
towards my abyss.
emptiness
numbness
frozen.
it comes and goes
it comes and goes.

and, yet
in this meaningless existence
i wait for the magnolia to bloom.

and i know
if and when the battle is lost.
this meaningless existence
will still
miss
waiting for the magnolia to bloom.
what a shame
what a shame.


📷 ma.

Wednesday, March 10, 2021

Plum Happiness!



Especially, plums remind me of home.

They remind me of nature and its natural process. In 2014, Kala bhauju and I waited for them to ripen so we could eat. Every day we would go check which tree on which field was ripening. The excitement of waiting and seeing nature take its time to offer you something it took months to create, is overwhelming. Nature teaches you patience.



Monday, March 23, 2020

A Videogame called 'Luvvia'




So, I don't know if I ever talked about Tim, here, before. He is a Dutch so his cheesiness is blamed on the cheese (by him!).

He is also my husband.

Currently, we are both in self-isolation due to Covid_19.  But, he is in the Netherlands and I am in Nepal. This is not really an issue as our relationship (15 years) has been most of the time, a long-distance one.

As I mentioned he is full of cheesiness and tries different tactics to make me swoon for him. But, his tactics are little further from the trendy, mainstream expression of love and romance. Yeah, he is a nerd. He doesn't accept it, at all! But, he would like to be called as Arithmetician- the mage!


Anyway, coming to the point, yesterday he sent me a gift through dropbox. It was a video game he developed for me. So, I started the game and found two characters: a young lad and a young lady. They look very much like the ones from the oldest version of Zelda.
On a square screen, the lady is standing at the bottom of the right corner and the lad is standing on the top left corner. The background of the screen is black and Enya's 'Far and Away' plays in the background. When you move these characters towards each other, the closer they become the pinker the background colour gets. And if you move them away from each other, the background turns blacker from pinker.


If you are able to bring these characters in a particular spot, almost in the middle of the screen, the background colour is pinkest and there appears a red heart in between heads of them. Suddenly the song changes to KISS's 'I was made for loving you baby...you were made for loving me' and plays on.

This way, my long-distance romance with my partner is going on while we quarantine ourselves to keep ourselves and others safe.


Monday, July 15, 2019

फाल्चा (पाटी)



I.
back in days,
Revolutions were born -  here!
like caterpillars, like butterflies
they crawled, they flew
from pati to kitchen
from guthi to the nation.



II.
“We are the witness!”



III.
And,
I am the witness.
I knew The People.
they whispered me their plans, their strategies
before they marched
to the gates of a man claiming to be God.
(to make him a commoner)

in other days,
I have heard their sighs,
and soaked their tears.
I have felt their hopes, 
and tasted their victories.  

I have nurtured
innocence of children
bravery of youth
and wisdom of the elderly.
I know.
‘the child is the father of the man’



IV.
Yes!
“I don’t like going to other places.
I like it – here -
I am happier.”
This is my second childhood.
as they say,
 'a man becomes a child - twice’.






V.
in these days,
more than familiar ones I see new faces.
this crowd carries
different languages, different smells and different tastes.
however,   
each aftershock seems to bring us closer.
as it loosens my grip to the core
they bring ‘teka’ to support
and I offer my corners for shelter.

I know
in these days,
revolutions happen through a screen.
but please
before you leave
do not forget to tell the tales,
back in days,
‘I was not just a heritage’
I was where Revolutions were born.

I am where Revolutions are born!


[I wrote this picture poem for an exhibition 'Mero Chowk' organised by Ka Baata in 2016. I don't remember the photographer's name. Will update once I find out.]


Sunday, December 24, 2017

Some People You Meet!


We are both not that expert on selfies. On top of that not really photogenic!

There are people who despite time and space stay with you. Jake seems to be one of them.

I met Jake Garber when he came to my school in Nepal to teach for a month or so. It was 2001 and I was 8th grade student. He was the person who introduced me to the word 'atheism' among many other interesting thoughts and ideas during our chitchats.

I got to see him after 17 years in London few days back. Somehow, we seem to have managed to stay in touch through rare emails, then LinkedIn, now Whatsapp.

While on my way to meet him I kept thinking how (why? what is it? kinda questions!) am I still in touch with him, all these years!We both are surprised and baffled at this fact! Of course, it became obvious after speaking with him for few minutes. Even then, he was a great teacher, clear on ideas and his thoughts, and had a very warm, persuasive and charming personality. These characters seem to have grown with time and I could not help but be inspired with this amazingly unique person.

During our long chitchat ranging from study to work to politics, struggles and confusions (just mine!) he uplifted my confidence, made me reflect on things that I had blind-sided (yes! it was sadly embarrassing!) and with patience offered his suggestions and advises. Feeling how wonderful it would be to meet this warm person more often (with realisation that next time it could be more than 2 decades before we meet!) I asked: "Do you think the Earth is round?" He promptly replied,"That is what I have been told!"

Thinking of his answer still makes me smile. At that time, I became more sure why I have always felt a kind of connection with him. There are very few people who can answer this question as the way he did, and without a blink. These kind of people make me happy.

This answer is what I will carry with me from this meeting believing in whoever told
that 'the earth is round' and eagerly wait for the time when I can meet this inspiring person as he makes me believe in learning.

Until then!

Review: Milk and Honey

Milk and Honey Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

"the next time he
points out the
hair on your legs is
growing back remind
that boy your body
is not his home
he is a guest
warn him to
never outstep
his welcome
again"

Do I need to say anymore?

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Mushroom hunters

foraging mushrooms with my dad in Jhumlawang It was a good day. Sun and cloud were playing hide and seek creating a  komorebi  (sunbeam)effe...