Monday, January 3, 2011

CRAZY!!!


Part – 3

Don't be so cruel!
Have some mercy and just leave. Let me lick my wounds and heal it myself.
Leave!
Go as far as you can. Be healthy, be happy. Live a long and meaningful life. Let me think you are living happily somewhere; wherever you are.
Let me be!
Don't ever come back. Even when I am crumpled on the ground, don't you be there to offer the hand. Even when I am wailing like a crazy person, don't try to wipe my tears. Don't hold me, when I am falling.
Don't you cry for me.
Don't you give me hopes. Because, these hopes you give make me bleed. Each time, as I bleed for you, the wounds get bigger and deeper.
Just leave!
I want to heal. I want to see the colours again. This time, my own colours!
So, don't you show yourself again. If you do, I will lose my sanity. I will come running to you like before. I don't want that. I don't want to plead. I don't want to be so weak, so vulnerable and so pathetic!
Therefore, don't apologize. Just leave!
Let me have the dignity that is left in me. If you leave now, there won't be any reasons for me to wait for you. There won't be any reasons for me to hope for your return.
Don't be sorry! Just leave!
I want to heal. I just want to start healing before I collapse again!!!

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